World Fantasy Con Report, Part 1
Thursday morning, 4:45 AM, I am up and scurrying quietly about the apartment, trying not to wake Carly with my last-minute preparations. Earlier than expected, Jana and the taxi arrive, and I'm off--not to work, as I should be, but to Arizona and World Fantasy Con, my first time to both.
At the airport, Jana and I quickly encountered Jane and Michelle. The business crowd hadn't yet arrived, so the trip through customs and security was quick and painless. Having over an hour to kill before the flight, we all sat at the gate and chatted in our somewhat sleepy, somewhat excited manner. Michelle held her coffee and seemed displeased with being up so early (I quite agreed and would have slept on the floor if I wasn't so jittery), and Jane took pictures with her Palm, and we talked and wondered where Ruth was.
We boarded the plane. Where was Ruth? Surely she'd be coming. She'd be there any minute. And then the blocks were pulled from the wheels and we were leaving the gate and it became clear that Ruth had missed the flight.
As flights go, it was decent enough. The airline headphones that I'd brought, feeling ever so clever for having the super-special two-prong jack end, didn't fit in the America West jacks and damn if I was going to pay them $5 for headphones I'd have to give back. When I got tired of reading, and tired of being tired, I watched Spiderman 2 without the sound. I ate and distributed my apple muffins, happy with myself for that decision after all, because yes, I'd been up to late making them, and yes, they'd turned out a little odd, but there I was with a bag full of fresh muffins, not needing to pay $7 for airline food.
When we arrived in Phoenix it was cold. And raining. I was not impressed.
After some confusion at the airport, Jana, Jane and Michelle left to get the shuttle to the hotel and I was picked up by my friend Amy. Amy and I went to Clarion together, and despite the fact that we were good friends, somehow we just lost touch over the past while. I realized that I hadn't actually seen her in something like two and a half years, and hadn't even spoken/emailed her in about a year and a half (due in part to the only email address that I had for her no longer working).
I spent the next couple of hours driving about Phoenix and Chandler and Tempe with Amy--we went out for lunch at an excellent Mexican restaurant, and chatted about everything that had happened since we'd last seen each other. I was, actually, supposed to stay with Amy for at least part of the trip, which I was looking forward to. However, the discovery that she had three cats (and the subsequent wheezing that heralds the beginning of an asthma attack) quickly made me change my plans and stay with Jana and Ruth at the con hotel instead.
The hotel itself was gorgeous: only four stories high and built around a large courtyard that was filled with fountains, palm trees, pathways and little concrete tables with pots of cacti on top. Inside it was nice, too. My only complaint, really, was that it was so damn cold
. I was wearing all the layers that I'd had on at 5 in the morning in Canada and still shivering.
Registration was a wonder, if only because all the stories that I heard were true. They really did hand me a big canvas bag full of free books. I can't even express how happy this made me. (We'd discussed this in the airport, and Michelle said that she usually ended up giving most of her free books away. I said sure, but she was used to people just sending her piles and piles of free books for her to review. For some of us it's still a delightful novelty--though one liable to cause injury and muscle strain if one is not careful.)
As no programming had yet started, we hit the art show and I was thoroughly impressed. Okay, sure, there were a few artists that did not impress me, but that's only to be expected. For the most part, the artists' work ranged from good to simply excellent; there were quite a few works that just made me stop and stare ... and stare ... and stare. One of which I bought a print of right off the bat (not having thousands of dollars and a very large wall to spare for the original). My only real complaint about the art show, really, was the irritating preponderance of artists who clearly use the latest issues of their favourite men's magazines for their female models and poses. (The facial expressions would give them away even if the poses hadn't.) Some were just ridiculous--especially when improper foreshortening of various limbs made it look more like someone had a leg half the length of their torso rather than curled under them in a sexy pose--sometimes to the point of making me turn away else I start to laugh. (After all, one never quite knows who the artist is...)
My one word of advice for aspiring artists is this: no woman, no matter how tough or sexy, no matter how windblown her hair or how silky her wings or how dangerous her blades, is going to wear a loose chainmail shirt without something to protect her breasts. If it's loose enough to shift, it's loose enough to pinch. And that's all I'll say about that.
After Amy had left for the evening, sitting around waiting for Ruth to arrive, I had my first fortunate random encounter of the con: I happened to be walking by just as someone pulled a copy of Summoned to Destiny out of their bag. I stopped, looking at the book and then the person holding it. Making the leap, I said, "Bryn?" At her startled look, I introduced myself. Because it was indeed Bryn Neuenschwander aka Marie Brennan, one of the other authors in the book. (Bryn also won the Asimov Award in 2003, when I again placed as an Honorable Mention.)
Had dinner at a mediocre pseudo-Mexican restaurant with her and another girl whose name I currently forget, then went back to see the opening ceremonies where I spied Ruth in the audience. We stuck around for Bryn's panel on fantasy based on existing mythologies, which she was moderating, and which was actually one of the best panels I saw all weekend. Near the end, however, I absolutely crashed; not surprising, as I'd been up at that point for something like 22 hours.
Sleep was good: it was the first time I'd felt truly warm in 22 hours.
Friday it was not raining. It wasn't warm, either, but it was not raining and that made me happy. Went out for breakfast to a place called The Coffee Plantation, which (despite its name) I referred to as the tea house all weekend. I'd thought about attending some of the morning panels, but ended up going to readings by Janny Wurts and Mindy Klasky instead. By the time lunch rolled around (I had onion rings, how healthy) I still hadn't managed to spot Amy, and thus began to ask the #1 question of the weekend: "Have you seen Amy?" (or its variant, "Does anyone know where Amy is?").
It was then time for Ruth's reading--Ruth's first public reading ever. She was nervous and worried about it for a while beforehand, but when the time came she was calm and spoke in a calm, clear voice. It was an excellent story, too; she read her short story from the DAW anthology Haunted Holidays, which I hadn't yet heard, instead of her Summoned one, which I'd read.
I finally managed to track down Amy (all praise to cell phones), who unfortunately only had an hour or so left until she had to leave again. Timing, timing...
Went to Ellen Datlow's GOH interview, of which I'd said beforehand, "This could be interesting so long as she's feeling chatty." I'm not sure if she was exactly chatty, but it was definitely interesting, and I don't think I can think about Ellen Datlow and geese without giggling to myself. I went up afterwards to talk with her for a moment, say thanks for the HM (or to pass along thanks to Kelly and Gavin, whichever was applicable), and then ran for the door. If there is one thing I'm terrified of, it's talking to people I don't know. Really need to work on that.
Anyway, as Ruth, Jana and I were heading out to dinner, they broke it to me that they and Bryn had signed me up for the mass reading that evening. I vowed vengeance. Something to dread during dinner, which we had at the local and irritatingly named My Big Fat Greek Restaurant. Despite the name, the restaurant was fabulous.
The signing itself ... well, it was an experience. I'd hoped to just wander around with my stack of books, talking to people and having them sign. Seemed like a plan to me, but now there was this whole angle of *me* having to sign books ... The only real problem was, Summoned hadn't really hit the States yet. Or at least not locally; no copies at the dealer's room, no copies at the local Borders. The only people who had copies were either us authors or people who knew us authors. But, as the others reminded me, we had promotional materials--all the posters left over from Book Expo, which I'd gone to fetch from Fitzhenry & Whiteside's main offices the week before.
The entire (freezing) courtyard was set up beautifully, tables with white table cloths and candles following the winding paths in every which way. There were a few tables inside, which is where my fellow authors grabbed spots. I, however, remained stuck outside at the nametag table for a very, very long time. The other three were all on the WFC programming, so of course the people knew their names. Me? They'd never heard of me. So as the famous and semi-famous authors all came up and got their nametags and went to their tables, I stood there ... and stood there ... and stood there.
"This," I thought to myself, shivering in the cold and generally looking like an idiot, "is not fun."
More waiting and a few complications later, I finally had my nametag and sat down at the table. Inside, no longer shivering, and with others to keep me company, I felt much happier. I signed two books and a few posters, and it was something. And part of the way through I just abandoned my table and went back to the original plan: wandering among the tables, finding people whose names I knew and getting them to sign books for me. Sharon Shinn was absolutely lovely, and every bit as cold as I was; Jennifer Roberson, who'd been hidden away in a far corner, seemed happy that someone could find her; Charles de Lint was gracious and approachable and happy to see another Canadian; and Kij Johnson forgave me for the fact that I didn't have a book for her to sign, and then we gossiped about Thomas.
After the event, Jana and Bryn vanished, and Ruth and I decided to head to one of the parties that we knew about: the Wildside party. There, I initiated my World Fantasy party tradition. How can you tell if I was at the same party as you? Did the lights turn off for seemingly no reason? If yes, then yep, I was there. I had an uncanny ability to lean against light switches, one that freakishly reoccurred all weekend. After a few minutes, recognizing no one and finding no one to talk to, we fled.
These two events had made me ponder: I knew that this was a fabulous opportunity. I knew many, many of the names of people who were attending; they were big name authors, and editors, and even agents. And yet the networking thing was just not happening. I realized the difference between this and other cons I'd attended; I had no gateway person. There was no one more influential than I who I could go to and say, okay, where are the interesting parties going to be? No one to introduce me to people that I could not bring myself to introduce myself to. And I'm not in any way suggesting that this is necessary or even an entirely good idea, just that it was something I was used to. I've been to few enough cons, that I took the presence of someone like Kelly or Jim or Julie somewhat for granted.
I had to admit to myself, I wasn't in a position to be influential, or meet influential people, or make important business contacts--because of my own reserved "oh my god what do I say" nature, if nothing else. It just wasn't going to happen. And by trying anyway, I was just going to make myself dissatisfied and unhappy. So I Want to be a Professional Karina got tossed out with the long-awaited nametag, and Fangirl Karina settled in for the duration.
And in my fangirl mode, I realized, I didn't really want to go to overcrowded parties where no one would be able to hear my voice, even if I shouted. So instead, Ruth and I settled down on the hearth of one of the outside gas fireplaces and read bits of stories to each other. When Jana joined us sometime later, I named it the first in the Fireside Reading series. Sitting by the fire (okay, nearly in the fire) I was warm, and reading stories I was happy, and I looked up at the palm trees and thought to myself that this really was an amazing place to be.